“I’m not good enough.”
“I don’t think I can do this.”
These thoughts have often run through my mind when I come across a new opportunity. I see something that aligns with the desires of my heart and often instead of running towards it, I turn the other way.
On my journey to pursue trust, I have to consciously choose to follow through on the opportunities that scare me. This has opened my eyes to some insecurities that have chipped away at my confidence for years. The biggest insecurity is the idea that I am not good enough. This lie has created a pattern that causes me to take myself out of the game before it even starts. I remember the first time I did this. I was encouraged to join the track team in 9th grade. I was a quick runner but had never raced anyone other than street races against my cousins and siblings. The school’s first race day arrived and I was ready! My team was cheering me on as I ran and I just knew I was going to win. Sadly, I finished the race in last place. I was devastated, embarrassed, and felt like a failure as I thought, “You are not good enough to be on this team.” On the ride back home I decided that was the end of my track “career.” Nineteen years later this idea of not being good enough still makes me want to quit. That was how I felt after returning home from worship practice last week.
I told my husband “I’m going to quit, this is too hard.” As soon as I said it, something shifted. This time saying it out loud not only sounded lame but it immediately felt lame. To quit now meant that I was saying yes to LAME– Living a Mediocre Experience. I couldn’t do it! If I am to continue my pursuit of trusting God, that means saying yes to BRAVE- Be Resilient and Value Experience.
“Experience is a grindstone; and it is lucky for us, if we can get brightened by it, and not ground.” Josh Billings
Your experiences are not always fun, but they are valuable because they help to maximize your potential and inspires others to live more brave. Today and everyday I will keep saying yes to BRAVE.
Your turn. How can you avoid being LAME and say yes to BRAVE?
1. Think about your last bad experience how can it lead you to phenomenal success?
2. Ask someone that you trust to share areas where they see you being LAME. Trust me-people can see it and those that love you will call you out.
3. Celebrate! When you’re afraid, it’s a sign to let you know this opportunity is going to produce a powerful outcome.